It’s been what, couple weeks after the retreat?.. Lol. I’m hanging out with smokers again, I basically started neglecting QT’s, I’m even more irritable than usual and to be frank, this whole things blows. I really thought I “changed” I’m just a lot more cockier than before inside lol. I’m forcing myself to do QT’s and asking God for strength. Still, sometimes everything’s too much. But hey I’m not abouta go on twitter and tell people I’m crazy. Hahaha.
Then again I guess things I’ve stopped.
Things I started
This retreat made me realize a lot of things. One of them being, you’re never too young to do the right thing. Before this retreat I assumed that it would just be a 2 month goody goody trip and then I can go back to doing whatever the hell I wanted to do. Smoke weed, drink alcohol, other stupid things. Instead, I had a vision of a righteous life. I want to grow up to amount to something. I figured I can either screw around the next 3 years and suffer for the rest of my life, or straighten up the next 3 years and onwards and live a life I can feel fulfilled to live.